Wandering Notions: Shoulding Yourself

Every morning for the past 9 months (what is time anymore?) I sit at our kitchen table and should-shame myself for not putting out a blog. I take another three minutes to brainstorm what I’m going to write about This Time, but nothing comes to mind.

So let’s talk about doing things because we want to and not doing them because we think we have to, or in other words, “shoulding” ourselves.

I don’t have to write. I don’t have to post a weekly blog. But I tell myself I should be posting a weekly blog. For all those readers out there (like, two). If I ever want to monetize my blog, I should be posting consistently.

But what’s been consistent about this past year? Fuck all.

I mean, I’ve consistently haven’t wanted to write. I’m too distracted. I kept telling myself, “okay, once things settle down, I’ll be able to focus my energy on writing again.” But it hasn’t happened. There’s a new shitstorm every week.

It got especially bad with the Elections. Once Biden was announced the official winner, I thought I’d be able to focus again. But no, we had a tyrant, fascist-wanna-be in Chief sowing doubts about Biden’s win for two months. Every day was a new lie. A new distraction.

I’ve had a Twitter account for years but never really used it. I didn’t “get” Twitter for…